Too Many Channels
Been feeling better from being sick for the past few days it's just been allergies plus low energy for the most part. I want to sleep all the time and can't sleep when I need it most, or at night at all really. Been having a lot of thoughts, too many of them even but trying to fight through.
Along side this I've also been struggling with involuntary age regression after months of not having regressed. I think it's due to the winter holidays coming up and my holiday spirit being mostly gone with life moving so fast for me at the moment. It hasn't been bad really I don't mind it it's just a new cooing mechanism I'm not used to yet. I'm also not used to what feels like "feeling emotions twice" because while regressed it feels like my emotional sensitivity is doubled. I ended up making a tumblr profile to interact with the community of it more to help cope with it better since I'm not used to it and being with the community has helped a lot.
I haven't done a Tarot pull since before getting sick. I should probably do one soon but having brain fog on what to ask so not sure if I'd even process the reading right but I'll hopefully try it again soon so I stay somewhat consistent in the practice. I will also be trying to be consistent with writing here to help put my thoughts together. I've been stuck in a mindset of feeling like in not moving forward but this helps me feel quite productive, even if it's only me really reading it.
I've honestly been feeling a lot like what the song Echo describes about switching faster than channels on the TV. It's a lot of worries many of which I'll never experience or watch, if we're continuing the channels metaphor that is. I'm hoping I'll figure it out sooner rather than later but I also know I need to take it slow but ironically one of the worries is about not being fast. It is good to slow down though it's just driving the idea into my head that's difficult. It's easier said than done but it'll be worth it.
Thank you for reading, going to try and sleep now since it's so late. <3
